You'll lose everthing you put before your recovery.

Make a list of everything that's important to you. Do it fast without undue critical thought.
Now give each of the things on the list a number with the number "1" being the most important thing.  Do this in private, be honest with yourself.  This is just for you.  One way to measure what is important to you is to think about how much time, energy or money you invest in it.  A pretty wise man I know, told me that over time everything you put before your recovery will be taken away.  If you go to meetings you know this is true, if you don't go to meetings then you may find out what happens to people who don't put the treatment of this deadly illness first.